You will not believe what happened yesterday. My wonderful Boyfriend and I left the house to go about our daily doings and we both forgot our keys. Can you believe that!!!!
On a different note, I sold my first items on eBay last week!!! My next venture is to check out the fleamarkets in my area. I just cant stop thinking about the house and the life I want.

My boyfriend and I have been together for about a year and a half and we still don't fight. We have nothing to fight about. We get along great. Last Thursday we had a fight that went on through Friday. Why did we fight? We faught because my life isn't interesting to me anymore. The problem is this... Two summers ago I thought I had my life all set. The weather was warm, the sun was always out, I worked my part-time job, made candles for my company, cut grass, farmed my fathers land, worked out on a daily basis, and had time and money for myself. Right now I have none of that. Right now I live with my boyfriend in a small house with a small yard and everything I do is for him or for us. I took on a much better job while still working the first one, I clean up around his house, do the laundry at a laundrymat, and have a problem taking my 3 mile jog in his neighborhood. All my money goes to my bills or to help lighten his heavy load. I know that life with him will not be like this forever, but I miss what I once had. I also know that he is doing everything he can and working hard to help get us out of our now situation, but it seems to take forever just to make a small- but noticible- dent. I hate knowing what I want and not being able to have it right away. Sorry if that classifies me as spoiled, but damnit I work hard and so does he and we both deserve a bit more.

I now work two jobs. I must have angels looking down on me. I can pay off all my bills and still get gifts for my family. The only draw back is not enough time to spend with the people I care about. Lately I've been working 10hour shifts at one jobe and 8hour shifts at the other, thats 90hours a week!!!!!!!!! Do I really have to work this much to earn a typical paycheck???

I've finally accomplished one of my many goals. I paid off and canclled all of my store credit cards. Now I have just one acctual credit card to get rid of. What makes me even more happy is the fact that I can now help my boyfriend out with his living situation. I told him that I could only do a small amount till the last bill was paid off. He seems to be happy that I can help more. I just want 5 acres and a decent sized house for a family. Is that asking too much these days?

Last night my boyfriends neighbor called to let us know that there has been a strange man walking our street for the past month. According to her and about two other neighbors, he comes every Saturday night around eight pm and picks a door to knock on. When the owner of the house answers the door he then asks for some gas money, saying his car broke down not to far from the street and he just needed a few dollars to get home. According to the neighbor that called my boyfriend- he looks like he is a bum that couldn't even afford a car. She also began to tell my boyfriend about the first time he approched a house on his street. The neighbor this bum approched felt so bad for him that he took this guy to the local bar and baught him a drink. The kicker is this... when the neighbor got up to use the restroom, the bum stole as much money from the top of the bar as he could and left. I would never answer the door if I didn't know the person, let alone take them out for a drink!!! I had to ask my boyfriend who his neighbors are and tell him I'm glad to not know them. Question two was "Why are we just finding out about this now, a month later?" Third question was "Why haven't the police been notified yet?" I realy feel safe now!!

I finally had to do it. I had to buy gas at $2.55. I just don't get it. Soon I wont be able to afford gas. That or I just wont be able to eat. What is our president doing to us??? What are we doing to ourselves??? A healthy piece of meat is almost $10.00, a bag of baby carrots is $2.00, and gas is rising to $3.00 a gallon. No wonder why Americans are fat, depressed, uneducated, and not motivated to get out of the rut they are in. Why is healthcare so damb expensive? I really don't care why these things are ore how they came about, I just was them fixed!!!!!!!!!!!

Today I bumped into an old co-worker while I was at work. She is now married, with a child, and living a "very busy life". I didn't have much to come back with. I do alot with my days, my time. I try to be a great girlfriend, run a candle company, work a part-time job, and keep up with family. Why would I tell her I wasn't doing much. I did mention all these things in my life. I made it out like all those things were nothing, WHY????